雪

引颈长盼 冬终于来了

首次看见 雪的飘落！

无数的点子飞扬 铺满了大地

闪闪的一片白色， 漫漫无边！

一步一步 让陷下去的双足

烙印着苏格兰旅程的开始

宁静的深夜 雪白的大地

深深的感恩 有父母的恩惠

才能吸进冬季的气息

冬季，叙述着不尽的故事

仿佛在耳边细语：

卖火柴的小女孩

旅人的心酸

雪中要记得送碳

坚持，犹如那最后凋谢的松柏

它，并不美丽

它，只是相续变化的四季之一

花谢花开 叶落复青

踏过的脚印，即如前人的足迹

已找不着一点儿痕迹！

它，透露着无常的讯息

好细微的声音

何时才能听得清。

-- 2009年12月21日 早上5时

于Bath大学下坡的路途中

仙人掌

今天看见楼下的厨房

来了一盆久违的仙人掌

小时候，最瞧得起的植物便是它了

披着有浑身的刺的它，没有美丽的模样

仿佛告诉着大家

如莲花般 “可远观而不可亵玩焉”

可是，寒风烈阳，风尘滚滚，滴水不沾

它却能在沙漠中屹立不倒

象征着在任何境时坚韧不拔的毅力与坚强！

对它的佩服与赞叹，化为一颗颗的盆栽

告诉自己要学习 仙人掌的勇气，

仙人掌的坚强。

如今，小心翼翼地抚摸它的刺

拗了一下

发现刺里的保护着的是容易受伤的嫩肉

啊，

原来有时仙人掌强硬的外表下

要保护的是内在柔软的心

是怕被伤害而筑起围墙吗？

有时候我们是否因为看见刺人的它便想远离，

而忽略了其实它有其善良的一面呢？

不饮酒

来到这里，所到之处，都可以看见人们手上拿着烟蒂；

晚上，一群群狂野的青年在醉中歌舞，欢庆那不老的夜晚！

面对种种的诱惑，一不小心，可能就会因为好奇心或同伴压力而想尝试

所谓这里的风气。

所幸, 因为持戒，让我对酒类有了更坚定的立场。

无论它是cidar, beer, 还是vodka~ 习惯了说“不”，持戒了更不用考虑地大声说。

这几个月，让我体验了不饮酒的真实功德~~ 让我LIST出来吧！

第一，饮酒伤身！大家应该很清楚啦。连yeast 都会被自己分泌出来的alcohol干掉，其毒性可想而知。持此戒的人避免了这一个“慢性自杀"的灾害。

第二，喝酒需要钱，在这里更是一种高消费。一杯好小杯的short 至少要两三磅，而且通常人们都是一喝不可收拾~ 于是，比起常饮酒的同学，我应该是省下了好多个两三磅去买我喜爱的milk chocolate biscuits~~ muller~~ mushroom soup~~

第三，看看喝醉酒的人，丑态百出，无言乱语，样貌一点也不庄严，更不知道自己在干什么。

虽然这是一个开放的国家，但是女生喝醉了实在是太危险了，所以不饮酒，我保护我自身的安全。

第四，翻开报纸，常常可见喝酒造成的祸害。女生被性侵害，男生发生殴打，醉酒驾驶，甚至酿出人命。因为不饮酒戒，我远离了喝酒造成的祸害。

以前的我，也许是看太多香港黑社会的戏段了~~ 以为将来的我来到热闹的酒吧便会爱上了它；但是现在的我却发觉原来不是这样! 可能是妈妈灌输的概念，觉得那些地方太危险了，所以总是提高警觉，怎么放松得下来呢。谈天，音乐太大声；要跳舞，又不够位跳！要联络感情，找别的地方去好了。

最后，因为不饮酒，我不用担心酒是红的，蓝的，黄的，还是绿色的才好喝；

不用去想这杯酒有多浓的酒精，喝了后还能不能回家，第二天早上会不会头痛 ；

不用烦恼哪里的酒比较便宜，哪一晚酒吧有打折；

不用想要如何穿得性感去吸引其他的“酒肉”朋友；

不用怕同伴的排挤与挑拨，因为他们会尊重你的立场；

你看你看，不饮酒是不是令我们少了很多烦恼呢？所以我终于明白，为什么持戒可以得清凉了！^_^

忏悔

今天，我要向她深深地忏悔！

那天，当我知道这一个小小的讯息，

我其实知道可能有很多人会忽略了而忘记纠正

我其实想起了您，也担心你会犯下同样的错误，

但是，最后我没有提醒到你。

我想你应该也会看到吧。不必担心啦~

结果，您却真的没看见。

而且后果真的很严重！

看到你们为了这件事情心烦的样子

我的心也觉得难过

如果这件事情发生在我自己身上，

我相信，当你一知道消息后一定会立刻通知blur blur 的我,

而我当初，

怎么可以不通知您呢！

我太没有义气了！

我觉得自己该为这件事和自己的心态负起责任。对不起。

As ethics says, when you choose to do nothing, you have already chosen to ignore.

I'm sorry, Yean! I was not being a good friend that time!

Now, with all my courage, I want to face my mistakes honestly..

and I promise I'll be a better friend from now on!

Hope that everything will be alright after this. I am awaiting your good news. Sincerely pray for you.

Sunday

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...... and it's Sunday! ^_^

闲情逸至的星期日

大概十点钟

才迎接在窗外敲着窗口

那蹦蹦跳跳的太阳

它今天好亮好亮

把热情带给了整片天空

亮得好刺眼 也亮了好久哦！

大半天的时间

用在收拾自己的房间

扫尘除垢 扫尘 除垢

布一擦过 灰尘动起来

一些被水分粘着 一些飞扬在空中~

最后慢慢地找个地方落脚了

捡起地上的脏物

有饼碎，有头发

脏物从哪里来？从自己来

突然想起那天的画面

想起了公公婆婆

就拿起电话

不顾一切地越洋连线

问候可爱的婆婆~

她以为英国下雪了！

在听到公公的声音

不知道为什么

每当想起他

心里都不由自主地 想哭

被一种感觉溶化了

也许是内心害怕 无常 会悄悄来敲门？

不要。。。。

盖了电话

心里很快乐

因为这一刻我尽了力

因为无常 我更要把握现在

这是我此刻唯一能做到的

对您们 的感恩

记得明年我回来时给我红包哦

嘿嘿^_^

煲了菊花 分给在这里的“兄弟姐妹”们

和父母skype

吃顿简单的面包午餐

帮帮朋友改作文

dudu 回来了 ^^

晚餐有伴侣了

边吃边看 下一站 幸福

这一站 和你一起 便是幸福

刚刚msn，有人问我

学佛多久了

我高兴的分享 最后发现

Ehipassiko 是最好的诠释

佛菩萨只是导师 好的地图只是帮助走好脚下的路

哇，晚上九时半了

一整天都没做到功课叻！

又是一个闲情逸致的星期天

我有多久没经历过了

好怀念这一份感觉

That day

That day, a feeling of loneliness sneak into my heart. It was that particular night, I feel lonely, I want someone to pay attention to me, I want someone to concern about me..I want to be loved...why aren't the persons whom I wish they will come and care for me be by my side that night?Everything that I thought starts with "I"...Because of the "I" that I want people pay attention to, to make me feel that this "me" has a value of existence in this world, I suffer when the ones I need their attention do not turn up beside me. When can I detach from the burden of "I"?

It's the first time I am face to face to my self loneliness. Although I was down, I know I shouldn't escape from it. I tried to investigate it. It was the desire. The desire for things are so commonly known. What about the desire for love? The desire is endless, no matter it is for good or bad. I want to cut that down. I try to do my work, telling myself not to listen to the desires. Whenever my mind comes to the wanting of someone to talk to me, I pull it back. To be in the present. I was always not in the presence. My mind likes to dream, they are being too active. I am not sure whether it is the right thing to do. I could have done anything that can ease my feelings. But I want to face my own loneliness, instead of trying to grab for someone to chat with so that to make me feel happier or compensate the emptiness. I may not feel excited or happy during that time, but i just want to see how can i say "no" to a desire. Facing the wordless moment for hours, battling with my own mind to stop it from wandering, trying to seek or grab for something.

In the end, how was I feeling? I don't get better nor worse. There's nothing gained or lost.

There's one book I am reading, it gave me the strong insight that, to learn Buddhism, you must practise it with a virtual scientific manner. Buddhism is a Science, in some ways! Sometimes, when we gain too much of the Dhamma knowledge, they can become the obstacles for us to truly experience the thing. Hence, we have to apply the scientific manner. No matter how the theories go, when we're in a lab, Forget about the theories. You must observe and record honestly what you have seen, and if you still keep the theory in your mind, you will have bias, because you always thought that it is correct in this way, not the others. It is exactly the same in life. Although we know that what Buddha said is always correct, when it comes to life, you have to put down everything you learn and do the honest experiment. Then only we are able to experience it. When we experience it, we link it back to what we have learned, and we'll find that they are no longer words. They are expressed in experiences.

Is what I said is correct? I don't know. It is said by the book. I will have to start my investigation, exploring my heart and the surroundings.

Finding inner peace

Everything depends on the mind.

When things go wrong in our life and we encounter difficult situations we tend to regard the situation itself as the problem, but in reality whatever problems we experience come from the mind. If we were to respond to difficulties with a positive or peaceful mind they would not be problems for us; indeed we may even come to regard them as challenges or opportunities for growth and development. Problems arise only if we respond to situations with a negative state of mind. Therefore, if we want to transform our life and be free from problems we must learn to transform our mind. Sufferings, problems, worries, unhappiness, and pain all exist within our mind; they are all unpleasant feelings, which are part of the mind. Through controlling and purifying our mind we can stop them once and for all.

As long as we search for peace and happiness in adjusting our surroundings, friends, material possesions and image, we are looking for peace and happiness in things which are impermanent and external. They bring joy and entertainment, but also suffering and dissapointment when they change, we get bored or we have to part with them. These things are not inherently peace and happiness.

Peace and happiness are a state of mind - so Buddhist teachings aim to work on the mind, to train it to be peaceful, whatever the life situation.

quote from http://www.bathstudent.com/news/article/BuddhismMeditation/1743/

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It is so true! It reminds me of the day, when the beloved 妙赞法师told us: Stress cannot be seen. It is merely a delusion of mind. (压力是无形的。) Does it realy exist? Is there a thing called 'stress' in this world? No..Yet, why are people always suffering from great stress??

This is just one of the example.Homework, Jobs, exams..what are they actually? why do they make people feel stressed and why do humans get frightened by the "stress" created by their mind?? For instance, the day when I get my homework with their respective deadlines, the stress level in me starts to accumulate to a peak. I got so "tensed up" and perhaps burn the midnight oil to complete them. As soon as the deadline comes and I pass up the homework, I feel totally relieved. The stress comes and goes. And my heart goes up and down with it, fooled by my mind.

Things and feelings are impermanent. Let's free our mind from the delusions. See the thing as it is: the homework as homework, the chores as the chores. There's no stress you can find from it. The fun thing is, you know the homework is not called as a homework anymore when u finish it - it is just a name created by our mind as well!

And I recalled the reverend said that, we must always remind ourselves that we are actually very "free" (我们是很得空的闲人！）Thus u free yourselves from lots of so-called "hassles" or "busy duties" in your life. Oh i miss Reverend "Marvellous Praise" a lot! ^^